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puppies
14:59 Mar 25 2008
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*sigh* we were in the box just talking about puppies....and i just realized....it is not our puppy anymore....

i really have lost a lot this weekend....*pout*

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Scarlett
05:09 Mar 26 2008

come to phoenix

Scarlett
05:09 Mar 26 2008

come to phoenix

Changes
02:36 Mar 25 2008
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i am the type of person that lives on 2 or 3 hours sleep a night....i have always been like that and function quite well.....just like someone with 8 or more hours....

but it is strange how your body changes when you go into a depression....all i want to do is sleep and sleep...it seems i can never get enough......

*sigh* this is one of my worst ones yet...i think the only one that beats it is when i lost my resteraunt and when i left my husband (even though it was my choice 18 years is a long time to walk away from).....

i feel like i lost a part of me this past weekend....something i will never be able to get back again....i did what i thought would be the best...but as usual i fucked that up and lost one of the most important people in my life right now...

all i have been doing for the past few days is working...sleeping and crying....i have not even been on the computer really........

anyone that knows me.....knows that the person i show on here as myself is who i am in real life....i am always smiling and try to be happy and makes others smile.....and right now i do not feel like smiling so i do not like to be on here.....i feel if i can not give someone a smile even on here i am letting them down.......and i think i did enough of that this weekend all ready.....

so for now it is sleep that is going to be my company for a while........i could always just stay drunk too...that always seems to help too....but as a good friend told me the other day...that is good for a short term solution is all....

*sigh* can i screw my life up anymore than it is right now?

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Abaddon
02:42 Mar 25 2008

*hugs*

Maybe you need a vacation? Some time to get away and hang out with a close friend? Maybe do something fun you haven't done in a long time?

We all need to get away every now and then and reconnect with our innerselves.

Sinora
06:44 Mar 25 2008

Yes the oversleeping thing with depression is quite common. Guess it's a part of us that just wants to hibernate till all the bad stuff goes away.....it will pass x

Happy F***ing Easter
19:42 Mar 22 2008
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*sigh* i just need to learn to count to 10 and walk away *sigh*

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Sinora
20:21 Mar 22 2008

It gets easier.....promise ....x

tammy
22:03 Mar 22 2008

i wish i coud believe you Sinora but thanks *hugs*

Some People Have No Class
22:22 Mar 13 2008
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you know you tried to give everyone the benifit of the doubt and try to see something good in them....

but with some...it is a lost cause.....no matter what way you look they are nothing but garbage....

whatever the spit out of thier trashy mouth is pure garbage.....i do not think they even know how to be a lady at all.....

you would think every women has a little class in them...but not this one...she would not know class if it came up and bit her in the ass.....

but hey...anyone can talk big on the internet.....they think themselves so cool.....

oh well if it makes them think they are somebody then.....i guess let them be.....they are usually the ones you feel sorry and pitty in real life..so what harm is it to give them something on here.....

anyway i am done venting now....it just pisses me off when trash talks trash.....

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DarkWolfman
22:28 Mar 13 2008

Amen sister

sockpuppet
22:44 Mar 13 2008

No amount of hollerin' will ever tarnish you. Those who have the pleasure of knowing a bit more about you, Scarlett and Craig, and others who have discerning taste, know you are plenty of vampire, and all lady.

TheHellequin
22:47 Mar 13 2008

You're damn right!

xxEmaeraldxx
23:11 Mar 14 2008

Oh Tammy, I believe there is more than just one of those on VR! Nods, yea..you dig?

deathnitegrl
19:59 Mar 22 2008

There is more than one, I agree meh.

Do You Have An Answer?
02:50 Mar 13 2008
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i was asked a question today and i am not sure if i can come up with only one answer.....

they asked me.....if i could have only 1 wish...what would it be?

i thought about it for a while and i could not come up with just 1.....i would say ok i have it...then would think about it again and come up with something more important...

would you be selfish or would you be generous (sp)?

i am not sure if there is anyone that could come up with just 1 answer and say ok this is it and i am not changing my mind lol

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